Basically, Im not going to let anyone psh me into random sex so I can feel better about my bf, Matt being away for 4 months. I got 2 signs recently that Im on the "right" path.
1) I was watching MTV- which I rarely do these day & there was a show called: TRUE LIFE - its an hour "reality show" about different topics young people face.
This episode was called: Im celibate.
**Celibacy refers to being unmarried or abstaining from sexual intercourse (i.e., chastity). A vow of celibacy is a promise not to enter into marriage or engage in sexual intercourse.
I caught the show half way through to a young man from the south- good looking & popular- a definite party guy with a lot of friends who chose to be celibate until he found the woman he would MARRY- this was not bullshit folks.
He was being interviewed while driving on his way to a party (he still maintained a healthy social life). I could tell he was not doing this for attention: tears welled up in his eyes as he spoke- there is no great approval than that from god he said. He is highly respected in his "group" & even seen as a role model to his peers.
Why is that? I believe he has a purpose- maybe he was sent a message from up above, who know- this was a message for me as well...
2) I found a website Amazing Angel Stories.
While I was on the train going to Soho to look for a job, I decided to search for inspiring stories- so I got on my blackberry & did a google search where I found this inspiring story appropriately titled: Boyfriend.God. and Angel Story.
As I began reading it & its similarities to mine- shes a Canadian (Im american) and he is British...Hhmmm- it sounded mighty familiar. Naturaly, I began to tear up- then end of the story was the most touching - what this woman said:
The greatest thing I have learned was, a little bit of true faith in God from a genuine and open heart will always show you how GOD AND HIS ANGELS WILL ALWAYS RISE ABOVE EVERYTHING, AND THERE IS NOTHING THAT HE CAN NOT DO FOR YOU. ALL YOU HAVE TO DO TO RECEIVE WHAT YOU NEED FROM HIM IS TO LEARN TO HAND OVER ANY ISSUE OR DESIRE TO HIM AND THEN TO TRUST HIM COMPLETELY WITH ALL YOUR HEART. THEN YOU WILL SEE HOW PERFECT HIS TIMING IS AND YOU WILL ALWAYS EXPERIENCE THE GREATEST JOY AS YOU REALIZE HOW POWERFUL AND TRUE HIS LOVE IS FOR YOU.
(The angels God sent showed us that two people in love and in unity with God at the center of that love relationship is what brings them the greatest joy.)
I want to do the RIGHT thing by my relationship. Im choosing to not cheat on him now - yes, I have in the past & he knew b/c Im a terrible liar lol;-0
Deep in my heart, i feel its what i must do to keep a clear conscience, this is not holding me back. Im still going to go out & have a great time. We all must practice moderation & self control or we are no better than a wild animal.
What makes us human is our ability to think for ourselves. To make rational decisions-
For every action, there is an equal & opposite reaction.
~Sir Issac Newton.
Think about it=)
Peace out.
xoxo
