"The first problem for all of us, men and women, is not to learn, but to unlearn."
I've discovered that its NOT money $ or $EX that makes me "fulfilled"...
The way I was living my life had to change, we have to change inside in order to change our outside environment- Im detached from those PAST people & places - they have been purged out of my life like poison extracted from a snake bite - I was weak willed not so long ago- time has given me my healthy view of the world again.
YOU ATTRACT WHAT YOU ARE....when you're unhealthy, you attract TRASH - Also, the dark is attracted to the light- people who are empty inside feed off the energy of warm & open people, in fact, it is that envy & insecurity within that made them empty to begin with - Make a self affirmation- I BLOCK negative energy & negative people away from me - say it out loud- its like an invisible restraining order- there were a couple people I met this year alone, I almost got an actual one written up...never in my life had I attracted to garbage as this year ALONE _ Im so happy they are out of my life!!! Only the people I choose to keep close have remained;-)
So many people Talk about injustice, they only move their mouths- its time somebody with a vision took more ACTION!!!
Its helping people, representing women as the good -hearted nurturers we were meant to be - its a new found HOPE & spirituality - its inspiration from women like Hilary Clinton, Gloria Steinem, & Marilyn Monroe -
A woman is meant to be soft, sexy, strong, maternal, WOMANLY - not a starving, waif that looks like a 13-year old boy - a woman is not meant to VALUE herself ONLY by her physical appearance, but we do- Its ingrained in us from the time we can comprehend what it MEANS to be feminine- How desirable are we to men?
Men have always objectified women - we are their trophies, their prized :possessions: then they DEGRADE us- we are also their whore, sluts, etc...
No wonder we are confused. Its unfortunate when women, then turn on one another- only adding to the mass hysteria of a woman's identity. I have been a supporter of womens rights & equality but never knew it- I ask myself- Why do I have to have a BIG WHITE wedding or even marry at all - unless I truly loves this man with all my mind, body, & soul....
I realize I do want a proper marriage but not a big wedding to show off to the world- I want marriage so I can have a family- the one I never had- with a mommy & daddy there for their children, TOGETHER as one, ONE unit - unless you have been abandoned, you will never know what torment it feels like- the guilt, the shame- you grow up to blame yourself over & over in your adul relationships- why did he leave me? Why didnt he want me- my own parents didnt want me- it has to be ME.
I sympathized with the lost, abused women int he world- I want to HELP them:
Sometimes those women have turned against me & defended the man who abuses them - in anger, I have said some thing I regret, in a way I dont- its like if you want to come to me for help then defend a monster then maybe, just maybe, you like to be USED - thats the mentality of most people out there- I know its much more complicated than that...
We should never ask- why does HE hurt me- why does he abuse women? You should always ask yourself: WHY DO I STAY?
Nobody can FIX you , but they cam try to HELP you & this is what my fight is about- its not to hurt people- its to HELP them discover their self worth - to gain their self respect again to FIGHT for their deserved freedom - we are not wild animals locked up in a cage- we are human beings who deserve a chance to reach our given potential.
Is this makes me a bitch or a bad person then I dont know what a good person should be- Im not trying to be anybody but myself- my passion is to make others aware of themselves- of their purpose in life then they can be strong enough to stand on their own & feel they have something to live for instead of complaining about their miserable existance, they can walk around with a big smile on their face & be thankful to be alive.
Surviving is NOT enough, ladies, its LIVING....ITS LIFE.
xoxo C*
I have met brave women who are exploring the outer edge of human possibility, with no history to guide them, and with a courage to make themselves vulnerable that I find moving beyond words. ~ Gloria Steinem
